Keeping it real around here. Yesterday I pounded out a bunch of freezer meals (and posted a picture to my personal page) and I had a lot of comments saying how awesome I was because of that. But the reality of it is,is that I’m not (okay, maybe just a little bit? 😉 just kidding!) Every one has problems. Everyone has something. No one is breezing through life untouched. I might be able to pound out a ton of meals in a couple hours, but I still have problems. My life is far from perfect. Freezer meals are simply a good/productive distraction. My heart hurts for one reason or another. No one one exempt….even when it might appear so.
I woke up this morning feeling a little defeated and a little down. I’ve struggled with this feeling for the past couple weeks. Ok – maybe even the last couple years. And then then it hit me. I could sit here and feel sorry for myself, of I could find some peace. So I left work and headed to the temple for an hour.
I came out of the temple and my problems were still there. My heart is still a little sad about problems that I have and situations that I cannot fix or change. But I felt strength and peace for a few minutes and that was helpful. Before leaving the temple one sister looked me, and gave me a little squeeze on the shoulder. My heart whispered: You can do it. You can do hard things. She knew I needed it.
I’ve spent the last couple weeks reading about forgiveness, vulnerability, and being authentic. And I agree, we need more of this in the world. Sometimes I think we would all be a little more kind, or a little slower to judge if we wore a sign around our neck with our struggles. Some are easy to see. Others are not. And honestly, I think most people are just better at putting on a brave face and covering their problems up. I wrote this post and then stared at it all afternoon before I decided I just needed to hit publish. Because that is what it’s all about.
I am not perfect. I cannot do it all. Today I am just thankful for a place I can go to find peace.
No matter your religion or what you believe I hope that everyone has a place they can go, or a person/being they can pray to that helps them find peace.
I think it’s more about that than anything else.
trusting in the journey.