Sometimes I think I can do it all. And then December rolls around and it’s like a slap in the face and I feel like a failure. I had big goals this month – specially for this blog, and I, obviously, haven’t even logged into publish the posts that I had saved as drafts! How easy would that have been?
December is busy. I’ve been reading. I’ve been running. I have things I want to blog about. I “write” blog posts all the time in my head. haha! But now it’s the 28th and I haven’t done any of it. Sitting down at my computer, putting my hands to the keyeboard (pencil to paper) – it just hasn’t happened this month and I’m not sure why. It’s been a rough month, and for no good reason for it to be a rough month. I’ve been really bad at writing back to people when I need too – really bad at posting when I need too – and really bad at getting everything done on my holiday list that I wanted too.
And sitting down at my computer to do something that I enjoy (and doesn’t really benefit anyone or my family) just makes me feel guilty. Sadly, that is how I see this blog sometimes. It doesn’t pay any bills, I don’t feel like I have a big enough readership for it to matter, and it’s just one more thing. Even though it’s the one thing that I really enjoy – so it really is the thing that I should be making time for in my schedule. Just how many things am I allowed that are just for fun for me? It’s a hard balance as a wife and mom. I read because I enjoy it. I run because I enjoy it (and I physically need it). I should blog because I enjoy it!
I know what I should do. I should get up earlier. I should set some priorities. I should spend less time on social media. And I should probably re-read one of my favorite books The Fringe Hours.
And I’ve also come to the conclusion that, this month especially, I really need to let it go – and try and remember my word for the year. Be Kind. I need to remember, that that also includes being kind to myself.
Next week is 2017. I am thinking of new ways to blog and different ways to spend my time. I am thinking of what goals I want to accomplish and how I want to accomplish them. What I want my focus to be.
How do you find a balance in your life? How do you find time to do things that you enjoy without feeling guilty? I would love to re-read The Fringe Hours, and possibly even do it as a book club/discussion group in the next couple months. But before that I probably should post the second part of our December book club, so we can wrap that up 🙂
What are your thoughts?
Here’s hoping that 2017 will be a better more effective year than December of 2016! 😉